Gillian Virginia

I would make mixed tapes for him to listen to and we’d talk about our favorite artists and songs, he’d tell me his stories from Woodstock, and we’d plan what it would be like when I became a music journalist. We’d make plans about where I’d go to school, where I’d live after, and how I’d work for Rolling Stone magazine preferably (as I got older, it switched to Nylon magazine). He’s still the person I write letters to when I’m in pain write before I set a match to those letters and letting them hang in the air, thick with meaning, but knowing in my heart that the voice in my head will show up and tell me what to do (and that the voice will be his). Lately, I’ve been hearing noises at night and when I listen more closely to the night air, open the windows, and try to hear what’s going on outside, I realize that it’s dead quiet because it’s 2 AM and this isn’t a wild, reckless city atmosphere that I’m currently in.

I feel like it’s important to this story to say that I was an awkward kid who, like a good amount of us do, got made fun of a lot and didn’t really have a lot of friends. I wanted this real life person to be that person that I had always dreamed of and he wasn’t which, honestly, is fair. The first lesson in self-acceptance that I learned was that you forgive people for yourself, not for them. I’ve realized that I like that I’m a dork who will sing along to The Beatles in a public forum (looking at all local baristas.

This song came out when I was 8 years old and thanks to my mom There are songs that you’re obsessed with for certain periods of your life, forget about for years, and then are completely obsessed with when you find it again. It just makes you dance with Bebe’s voice and Pete’s incredibly specific writing style. Matt Berninger’s voice in this song brings me all the vibes of the early days mixed with Trouble Will Find Me.

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