Chantal Firouz

I’m sorry you feel like it’s you against the world. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I’m sorry for believing you’re rejectable because others rejected you. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I’m sorry for not realizing that mean girls are hurt girls projecting their own insecurities.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You don’t need to prove your worth to anyone. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You’re perfect and beautiful from the inside out. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ It will be more obvious to others than it is to you- start viewing yourself from the eyes of those who love you. Ignore the rest. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You’ll be told that not everyone can be a good of a friend to you as you are to them. Keep showing up as the incredible friend you are anyway. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ One day, you’ll learn to give yourself the attention you seek from others. Don’t sell yourself short. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I’m proud of you for your resilience + free spirit. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I’m proud of you for having bigger balls than the boys. For being brave enough to stand up for what you deserve and never allowing a man to intimidate you. Spoiler alert – we end up intimidating some boys along the way and eventually meet a man who's as hot as he is loving. Go us. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Everyone gets hurt. You’ll use your pain to heal others.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You’re a trailblazer. You’ll be the first to do a lot of things. Leadership can be a lonely road, but you’ll find your tribe and build a life you love. Keep going.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Your message will penetrate more deeply when you learn to respond > react.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ One day you’ll have a baby sister and loving her will teach you self love.⁠⠀

⚠️❌ YO I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU AND ES MUY IMPORTANTE ⚠️❌ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Are you sick of choosing suffering? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ By constantly comparing your body to hers? ⁠⠀ By covering up when you want to be acknowledged? ⁠⠀ By denying yourself of your desires on the reg? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Cause today is the day I quit and I’m not even giving my 2 week notice 🛸⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today is the day I STOP looking at her and wishing for what she has/wears/earns/is.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today is the day I break the patterns of comparison + self judgment.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ How ridiculous to love ourselves one day and not love ourselves the next? You know what that’s called? A toxic relationship. An abusive relationship. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ When will you break up with the side of yourself that rejects you and treats you like crap? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You’re fucking perfect. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ The same source that created the sun, the moon, the stars. Created YOU. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Do you see one planet comparing its energetic field to another? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Do you see one tree bragging about its greener leaves? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ It’s a batshit crazy way thinking, no? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ It’s a small game we’ve been playing, sis. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But it IS possible to radically change your reality by taking a look at the beliefs that got you here. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ As long as you carry this belief that ‘I’m not worthy’, you’ll always attract circumstances that prove you right. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So let’s flip that shit like a pancake! 🥞⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Try one of these affirmations instead:⁠⠀ -⁠⠀ ∽ If she can achieve that, it means that’s possible for me too. ⁠⠀ ∽ I can notice differences without comparing.⁠⠀ ∽ The more I show up in my divinity, the more I heal myself and others.⁠⠀ ∽ My uniqueness is an asset, not a flaw. ⁠⠀ ∽ I choose consciousness > repeating programs. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You were not created to be like everyone else.⁠⠀ You were not meant to fit in. ⁠⠀ Are you a robot? HELL NAW. 🤖❌⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ @elevatewithdanica and I are hosting ‘Change your Beliefs, Change Your Life’ on Clubhouse next Tues, Jan 19th @ 1:30 PM PST. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Join us for an open convo! It’s time to SHAKE SHIT UP.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀

Exactly what goes through my head when I squat 😂 Hit my first PR since this whole cancer journey and I’m DAMN PROUD! What do you tell yourself to get through the grind? 😂 👇🏼

𝘼𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙘𝙤𝙘𝙠𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙘𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙣 𝙪𝙣𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚-𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I throw the term ‘unfuckable with’ around a lot, and today I was thinking about what that really means to me. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ At its core, unfuckable = resilient. I am unfuckable-with when I choose to dance with fear rather than suppress it. When I withstand difficult life conditions. When I exhibit an unwavering sense of self. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Imagine you’re playing a game of dodgeball. The balls are cancer, traffic, breakups, a parking ticket, your ex, limiting beliefs, physical pain, etc. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ In this context, unfuckable-with means dodging the balls, letting them bounce through your legs, or catching them before they hit you. If you get hit, you regroup and jump right back in, unphased. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So what does being fuckable-with look like? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⇢ Needing life to unfold in a very specific way in order for you to be okay. ⁠⠀ ⇢ Expecting everyone to live by the same set of ‘shoulds’.⁠⠀ ⇢ Requiring your significant other to act like ___ for you to love her. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ When you define ‘that which disturbs you’ = not okay, and ⁠⠀ ‘that which does not disturb you’ = okay, ⁠⠀ You’re allowing fear to control you. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ^^ that thinking makes life feel threatening, and you’ll spend tons of energy trying to prevent things from happening, or worrying about what to do because things did happen.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ If you want to grow spiritually, you have to release that thinking. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ The alternative is to accept that life isn’t under your control, and that’s only a bad thing if you choose to see it that way. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Life pushes us to our edges so we can release what’s holding us back and live more fully.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But most of us try to justify keeping our baggage rather than working to release it.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ As I enter my 5th round of chemo, I choose to be unfuckable-with. I will maintain my strength. I will rest when I’m tired. I’ll recruit the support of acupuncture and edibles if I feel the side effects coming on. I’ll maintain my sense of humor and my spirit will not be broken. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀

If your to-do list is longer than a CVS receipt and your adrenals are like ‘whoaaa back the F up’, listen up friend! Dis for you. ⠀ ⠀ If you’re a type-A, get shit done kinda gal, energetic balance can feel totally elusive. Like, unicorn elusive. 🦄⠀ ⠀ I know, because I was the KWEEN of operating from masculine energy (read: structure, hustle, results driven).⠀ ⠀ The little voice inside my head would say: ⠀ ⠀ 👉🏼 I need to slow down.⠀ 👉🏼 I need a break but I have so much to do.⠀ 👉🏼 I’ll meditate when I’m done with work.⠀ 👉🏼 I don’t have time for these emotions, I need to fix them.⠀ ⠀ Spoiler alert: I didn’t listen. ⠀ ⠀ Taking time off felt impossible. I was operating from a system of do-do-do- the more I accomplished, the more valuable I felt. ⠀ ⠀ ⚠️ Then I got diagnosed with cancer and life forced me to slow down and prioritize who I was being + how I was feeling > how much I was accomplishing. ⠀ ⠀ Through hypnotherapy, qi gong, and Chinese medicine, I learned how much my lifestyle had contributed to the decline of my health. ⠀ ⠀ 👉🏼 Pushing myself at the gym, even when I was tired. ⠀ 👉🏼 Suppressing anger, because feeling it was inconvenient. ⠀ 👉🏼 Judging myself for falling short on my to-do list.⠀ ⠀ Hear me - the hustle IS NOT sustainable. ⠀ ⠀ And there IS a way to get 💩 done without losing your sanity. ⠀ ⠀ Here are a few tips: 
⠀ ⠀ 1️⃣ Schedule your self care like you would any business meeting. If you’re unhappy with where you’re at, but aren’t sure what you need, schedule time to reevaluate how you’ve been spending your time. ⠀ ⠀ 2️⃣ Notice where you’re bypassing uncomfortable emotions and choose to sit with them instead. According to Joe Dispenza, the refractory period for an emotion is 3-5 minutes. When we suppress or avoid emotions, they get trapped in the body and get expressed in other ways (i.e. a short fuse, disease). The only way to transmute these emotions is to express, process, and release. Any emotion that lasts longer than a few minutes is because we’re retraumatizing ourselves (judgment, making it wrong, internal dialogue, etc) ⠀ 3️⃣ Start slow. Journal for 5 min/ day or read for 15! ⠀ ⠀ Watcha think about this? Let’s chat 💬

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Next time you find yourself relying on external validation to boost your self esteem, remember this 👇🏼⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I was watching @bigbrotherisrael and one of the younger ‘tough guy’ contestants (Yehuda), who has a very short fuse, broke down and shared how, despite acting like a tough guy, he has low self esteem and feels like trash because he once spit on his mom in rage. All the anger he ever directed towards her was a projection of his anger towards himself. Everyone ran to hug him as he broke down.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Earlier that day, Lior had a private convo with Yehuda. Lior believed there was a good kid deep down and encouraged Yehuda to express himself more calmly and share his story so that others could connect with him. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ When Yehuda broke down and everyone rushed to hug him, Lior sat back pridefully, and didn’t claim any credit for encouraging Yehuda to open up. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ As I watched, I got a flashback of the first time that had done something great for someone, and rather than trying to claim credit, I watched and smiled to myself. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Why did this moment stand out? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Well I used to do things in seek of praise, validation, and acknowledgement from others. I wanted others to feel proud of me, supported by me, inspired by me. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ And I was doing great things, but the external motivation didn’t always feel authentic and pure. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ This flashback got me thinking about: How can I give myself the acknowledgment and validation that I seek from others? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So I wrote a few ways that you and I can both achieve this when we need a reminder. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ We can… ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Celebrate our own wins, however small. ⁠⠀ Buy ourselves a cake, balloons, or flowers. (Or all 3!)⁠⠀ Treat ourselves to a new outfit. ⁠⠀ Adorn ourselves. ⁠⠀ Invest in our self development. ⁠⠀ Savor quiet moments in solitude. ⁠⠀ Write a beautiful letter to ourselves.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ How do you celebrate and validate yourself?⁠⠀ What would you add to this list?

Today, I’m feeling tired. And I’m still enough. ⠀ ⠀ I haven’t journaled or meditated all week. And I’m still enough. ⠀ ⠀ I haven’t posted to my feed in 1 month. And I’m still enough. ⠀ ⠀ It’s 3 pm and I haven’t changed out of my pajamas. And I’m still enough. ⠀ ⠀ Today, I’ve wanted to throw my chemo bag over the balcony. ⠀ ⠀ I’ve been frustrated with myself for experiencing brain fog + struggling to find my words. ⠀ ⠀ I’ve felt jealous of other entrepreneurs sharing their wins online. ⠀ I’ve doubted my ability to build a successful coaching business. ⠀ ⠀ I almost cried trying to fill in my eyebrows. ⠀ ⠀ And I *really* miss washing my hair in the shower. ⠀ ⠀ 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙄’𝙙 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙖 𝙘𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙩. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙬 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙.⠀ ⠀ “Your worthiness is not determined by how many tasks you cross off a checklist”⠀ ⠀ “Every season of life comes with it’s ups and downs. You can experience sadness + frustration AND self love + compassion at the same time”⠀ ⠀ “Allow yourself to enjoy a day in pajamas. You’re not stuck in this outfit. You’ve chosen it”⠀ ⠀ “You are a brave, badass, limitless woman. You’re on an aggressive chemo regimen and remain untouchable - no nausea, no lost period, no neuropathy, still lifting weights, and navigating most days with a smile on your face - don’t overlook how powerful you are”⠀ ⠀ “No one is judging you as hard as you’re judging yourself”⠀ ⠀ “How can you find joy in the rougher moments?"⠀ ⠀ 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙖𝙮?⠀ ⠀ Type it out in the comments below. ⠀ ⠀ Go ahead. I’ll wait :) ⠀ ⠀ After you’ve commented, go back and re-read what you’ve written. ⠀ ⠀ Maybe out loud this time. ⠀ ⠀ Allow the words to really sink in. ⠀ ⠀ Because here’s the thing… ⠀ ⠀ The words of encouragement you’ve chosen to share with this beautiful community are a projection of what you’ve wanted to hear most. ⠀ ⠀ All you needed was permission to listen to your wise inner voice.

HYPNOTHERAPY PART 2 ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ~ If you couldn’t think of a pattern before, is anything coming to mind now? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ~ I’ll keep writing and I invite you to reflect on your own life as I continue to share. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ During hypnotherapy, we did EFT tapping to uproot the stagnant energy (anger, shame, resentment). ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ “She was only 7” ⁠⠀ “She was just a kid” ⁠⠀ “I was just a kid too”⁠⠀ “I made it mean that I’m not good enough”⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I then revisited the scene in the classroom. Little Chantal no longer felt emotionally helpless. I could see her face had relaxed. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I was then asked to envision myself at the same age in a happy moment. I visualized myself playing with all the kids on the playground. I was smiling ear to ear. Everyone was included and everyone wanted to play with me. I saw little Chantal glance at me and wink. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I started laughing and crying IRL. I knew she was okay. I had gone back and recoded my subconscious. I felt fucking victorious. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Are any patterns coming to mind? ⁠⠀ Any limiting beliefs you're ready to shift? ⁠⠀ Can you remember what event triggered it? ⁠⠀ Are you interested in trying hypnotherapy?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I'd love for the comments section to be an open discussion between everyone who chooses to participate! If you have questions for me, I'm here for it! ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀

HYPNOTHERAPY PART 1 ⠀ ⠀ Do you find yourself constantly attracting the same BLAH scenarios into your life?⠀ ⠀ The ones that make you roll your eyes and think ’story of my life’?⠀ ⠀ Things like..⠀ ⠀ » Attracting emotionally unavailable men. ⠀ » Having conflict with people of authority. ⠀ » Struggling to find satisfaction at work. ⠀ » Feeling betrayed by female friendships. ⠀ ⠀ Can you remember the very first time it happened? ⠀ ⠀ For me, #4 has been a recurring theme in my life for as long as I can remember. ⠀ ⠀ During a hypnotherapy sesh, I recalled the first time I felt betrayed by a friend. I was in second grade. It was my first year at my new school and she was my closest friend. One day, she stood up in front of the class and shared how she felt one of her friends wanted to spend so much time with her that she didn’t have time to play with her other group of friends. ⠀ ⠀ I was the friend she was talking about. ⠀ ⠀ I felt so embarrassed. I never understood why I couldn’t join her friend group. Why it had to be me + her, or her + her friend group. At my old school, the whole class was friends. ⠀ ⠀ She decided not to be friends with me and I remember feeling so unworthy. Not good enough. Not qualified to fit into a girls group. ⠀ ⠀ And that’s the moment when ‘I’m not good enough’ got coded into my subconscious. From that moment forward, the universe unfolded to prove me right. ⠀ ⠀ I kept attracting female friends who I allowed to betray me, because ‘I wasn’t good enough’. ⠀ ⠀ ➊ Like my friend in 7th grade who decided to stop talking to me and convinced the group to do the same. ⠀ ⠀ ➋ Like my 9th grade best friend who I caught stealing from me.⠀ ⠀ ➌ Like my friend in college who left me to spend the night at her boyfriend’s friend’s house alone after her birthday party, because she decided not to drink and drove home with her boyfriend. The friend who I didn’t know, came to the couch where I was sleeping and tried to make a move- I felt so unsafe and betrayed. ⠀ ⠀ ➍ Like my best friend who slept with the guy I was seeing. ⠀ ⠀ ➎ And, of course, like my friend who ditched me when my cancer journey began. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ <PART 2 IN NEXT POST>

Spilling the chemothera-tea with a new blog all about my hair loss journey. This was a really emotional one to write. Sharing some unposted videos from that day on my stories 🤍 Link in bio.

As I pulled up to Ed's house, I saw him standing in the doorway, waiting to greet me like he always does. ⠀ ⠀ He welcomed me in, and I walked straight to the back room where we have our weekly qi-gong sessions. ⠀ ⠀ I could feel myself ready to burst with pent up emotion. ⠀ ⠀ As soon as the door closed I started bawling. I told him how frustrated, sad, and helpless I had been feeling. ⠀ ⠀ I was angry at the world. I was confused and scared. ⠀ ⠀ My inner child was terrified, and my adult self was too shocked and exhausted to help. We were both scared. ⠀ ⠀ Plus, the hormones I've been taking for the egg freezing process have drained every ounce of happiness from my soul. ⠀ ⠀ I've felt powerless and completely ungrateful for life, and I was in no position to comfort my inner child. ⠀ ⠀ I needed Ed.⠀ ⠀ When I was done sharing, I got on the table. ⠀ ⠀ He validated everything I had shared. He then walked me through some exercises to release the anger and sadness in my body as he did his qui gong magic. ⠀ ⠀ When I had calmed down, he put my right hand on top of my left. I knew he was about to share a powerful story - he was full of them. And this is what I came for. ⠀ ⠀ Little Chantal, he said, is terrified. And rightfully so. The world feels big and scary, but she's not alone. Adult Chantal is with her, and can navigate any obstacle in life, piece by piece. ⠀ ⠀ Right now, you're both at the base of a big mountain. You'll walk up together, hand in hand. Sometimes, little Chantal will get tired and scared. That's okay. Find a place to sit on the mountain and take a break. If she needs to cry, let he cry. When she's ready, take her hand and keep going, one step at a time. ⠀ ⠀ Sometimes, you'll want to quit. We all have them. I call these my survival days, he explained. Sometimes, my only goal is to make it to midnight, and I know I'll be okay. ⠀ ⠀ So when the mountain looks steep and you can't see the peak, take a break, then keep inching your way up.⠀ ⠀ 'Cry and Fly' he calls it. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ This is your loving reminder that you can handle whatever challenge lies ahead. ⠀ ⠀ Maybe today is your survival day. ⠀ ⠀ Take that rest, but don’t give up. If you have to, Cry + Fly 🤍

“When it feels unsafe to be seen, being fully self expressed is an act of rebellion” ⠀ ⠀ As I laid on the acupuncture bed, the words filled my head like a mantra. ⠀ ⠀ I never knew why ‘full self expression’ and ‘authenticity’ were so alluring, or why they carried this badass energy in my perspective. ⠀ ⠀ But it was beginning to unfold. ⠀ ⠀ I dropped in. ⠀ ⠀ Little me felt Undesired. Undervalued. Alone. ⠀ ⠀ She wanted to fit in with the popular crowd. Even though they weren’t her type. They had something she didn’t.⠀ ⠀ Attention. ⠀ ⠀ She craved what she saw the other girls receive. ⠀ ⠀ I cried for her. My heart ached. I hadn’t felt this feeling of isolation in so long. ⠀ ⠀ I allowed myself to sink in deeper. ⠀ ⠀ 8 year old me didn’t quit. She was resilient. A warrior. She refused to fall to the bottom of the social totem pole.⠀ ⠀ So she became strategic. ⠀ ⠀ She decided to attach herself to the kids who WERE getting attention. The loud, energetic, vibrant kids. ⠀ ⠀ Attention by proxy. ⠀ ⠀ But living in their shadow meant hiding more of herself. ⠀ ⠀ I couldn’t believe how much of my subconscious was revealing itself to me. Tears streamed down my face. I was sweating. Breathing heavily. ⠀ ⠀ If I was going to heal this tumor naturally, I knew I had to get to the core of my suppressed anger and shame. Then release it.⠀ ⠀ I sank deeper. ⠀ ⠀ Little me was a chameleon. She adapted easily to different groups and settings, but never went after what she wanted. ⠀ ⠀ She didn’t even know what she wanted other than to fit in. ⠀ ⠀ As the years passed, a pattern revealed itself. ⠀ ⠀ Make a friend 👉🏼 get close 👉🏼 they leave for a closer friend or boyfriend, move schools, or betray me 👉🏼 end of friendship 👉🏼 I feel alone and not good enough. ⠀ ⠀ Deeper. ⠀ ⠀ It felt unsafe to be me. ⠀ ⠀ NAILED IT. ⠀ ⠀ By this point I was a mess, laughing, crying, grateful, sad. ⠀ ⠀ I thought back to little me. Through it all, she had a big heart. She loved others more than she received love from them. ⠀ ⠀ She forgave others. She was a mediator. ⠀ ⠀ She was soft and strong. ⠀ ⠀ Resilient. Compassionate. Empathetic. ⠀ ⠀ I admire her. She's so amazing. I will finish this journey for US.

When intense emotions arise, we often⁠ ⁠ ⭒ Distract ourselves with food, TV, shopping⁠ ⭒ Push them away by meditating or journaling⁠ ⭒ Take Rx drugs to not feel ⁠ ⭒ Dump or download them onto someone else ⁠ ⁠ Literally anything except to surrender to them. ⁠ Feel them. ⁠ Welcome them. ⁠ ⁠ But that’s how anger, rage, guilt, fear, shame, and pain get stored in the body. They’re never released. They’re only suppressed. ⁠ ⁠ Years go by and our memories no longer hold the emotional charge they once did, but our cells don’t forget. ⁠ ⁠ They regenerate with the same ‘defective coding’ until those negative emotions lose their intensity. ⁠ ⁠ So how do we find peace in intense negative emotions?⁠ ⁠ Drop in. ⁠ ⁠ What if you allowed yourself to go back to those moments when you felt intense fear, anxiety, guilt, shame, rage, and really sink into that feeling. ⁠ ⁠ Allow yourself to FEEL.⁠ Ask yourself where in the body you feel it. ⁠ Go deeper. ⁠ What’s behind that emotion? ⁠ FEEL it. ⁠ Cry if you have to. ⁠ This is your opportunity to release. ⁠ Go deeper. ⁠ ⁠ Allow yourself to fall into the nothingness. ⁠ The helplessness. ⁠ The despair.⁠ ⁠ It my feel uncomfortable. ⁠ It may feel heavy.⁠ But it's not bad. ⁠ ⁠ It's healing. ⁠ ⁠ You’re meeting your edges, and they are expanding.⁠ ⁠ When you identify the moment, picture yourself there. ⁠ ⁠ Knowing what you know now, how would you navigate that scenario? ⁠ ⁠ Can you forgive yourself? ⁠ ⁠ Can you forgive the others? ⁠ ⁠ What do you want to say to them? ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ Once confronted, these feelings will no longer have na emotional pull. ⁠ ⁠ Perhaps you’ll find Peace⁠ Limitless love⁠ Liberation ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ You’ll no longer be driven by the need for approval, love, or worthiness. You’ll realize that you are those things. ⁠ ⁠ Naturally and effortlessly. ⁠ ⁠ You’ve just been led to believe that you’re all the emotional muck you’ve dumped on that perfect, brilliant, young self. ⁠ ⁠ You are whole. ⁠ ⁠ You are perfect.⁠ ⁠ Believe it and you're free ⁠ ⁠

Declarative language has the power to alter reality. For example: I declare you guilty- you were innocent before the declaration and guilty after it. I pronounce you man and wife - you’re considered single before and married after. Our words our powerful, and the way we speak to ourselves matters. Right now, I want you to repeat ‘I AM’ to yourself. Repeat it silently or out loud until you feel how powerful those words are. Everything you say after will become your reality. Last night, on the way home from @healingwithgeorgi healing circle, I recited the following words over and over and over until I got home. I’m sharing to show you what this practice can look like. The more I recited the words, the more real they felt. Until I really believed them to be true. And they are. This is a copy/paste from my notes app: I am strong. I am beautiful. I am powerful. I recognize my own beauty. I recognize my own strength. My mind is powerful. My thoughts create my reality. I am healthy. I am strong. My chest is clear. I breathe deeply. I believe in my body’s ability to heal itself. I am healing. I am a warrior. I am calm. I am energy. I am love. I am mighty. I have a strong presence. My energy is positive. I am unfazed by toxicity. I am love. I love myself. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful for this journey I am truly blessed. I am abundant. I am inspiring. I am magical. I am whole. I am perfect I am at peace. I am untouchable. I am fearless. Fear fears me. 🦁 I am a badass. Everything that comes after those words creates your reality. Use your words wisely. So tell me, what are you?