Casey Walker

if you find it hard to have a positive relationship with working out, try shifting your “why”. exercising has SO many benefits to improve your life— and there are all sorts of ways to move your body 👏🏼 #workingouttips

(a lil over) half baked ✨🖤🤰🏼 [half baked pregnancy photoshoot]

i blinked and july happened 🙃 (first photo is from our pregnancy announcement photoshoot with @theretropenguin at @intheglossary)

a quick reminder about health and weight 🫶

we aren’t born hating our bodies, it’s learned from the world around the us 💔 and now it’s up to us to spend the time to un-learn these thoughts and feelings that have been deeply rooted inside of us. it’s a lot, but i promise time spent doing this is better than time spent hating ourselves 🫶

a little bit of the last few months ✨ we got the call about our viable embryo (post genetic testing as part of our IVF journey as a carrier couple) the same day my period started… so we went from waiting around to GO TIME. we were transferring a few weeks later. transparently, pregnancy has been really rough for me. while i am over the moon with gratitude to be pregnant, it’s been a lot. what started as nausea turned into lots of daily puking with little relief. which has been a bit of a mental hurdle given my ED history, but more on this later 🖤 i basically lived on peanut butter jelly, eggo waffles and Cheerios for the first few months bc my stomach couldn’t handle much else. now i’m able to eat a bit more, but i still don’t leave the house without a trash can (affectionately called buckey) or a puke bag. i also have to take a suppository to help with getting sick bc no other meds have helped. of course the stereotypical pregnancy exhaustion has been real 😂 but second trimester has given me a little energy boost! i thankfully have been able to go on walks and do Pilates, which helps me mentally and physically! baby b also loves the pool (just like mama 🤪) and we have been floating, reading and swimming laps when we can! havent had too many cravings, but i’m sure they’re coming eventually! oh, also i for sure have a case of pregnancy brain. the bump hasn’t been to prominent yet, but boy have the boobs grown 😂 it’ll be interesting to see how these continue to change throughout the next few months of pregnancy! love to all the other mamas to be and friends on their TTC journey 🫶

“i’m going to be bad and have some ice cream!” “i was good today and ate carrots for my snack!” “i’ve been so good this week that way i can eat out for lunch with you!” *always picks out “guilt free” snack over regular option* sound familiar? life changes when we stop assigning moral value to foods. one food isn’t simply “bad” and you’re not inherently “good” for choosing a different food. it’s much easier to navigate a healthy relationship with food when you change your language and perception. easier said than done when we’ve grown up around this, but as someone with a history of disordered eating and a less than ideal relationship with food, i truly think it makes a difference. i encourage you to practice reframing these thoughts when they pop into your head, and ditch the “good” and “bad” labels.

a few summer outfits i throw on when pants aren’t in the plan ✨ hope this gives you a little curvy girl style inspo! i tried to take on the full rhythmic trend here… but pregnancy hasn’t mixed too well with my perfectionist brain 😵‍💫🥵 after many takes and lots of sweat, i decided it wasn’t worth the fight.

thank you for all the love and support as we’ve been on this journey to grow our family ✨ it truly means the world to us. baby b is already so loved 🥹 we’ll catch up soon on the last few months of IVF and pregnancy so far 🖤

baby b on the way 🥹✨ it has been quite the road to get here, and we’re ever so grateful to grow our family through IVF. we are sending love and holding space for those in different stages of their own TTC journey. you are not alone 🫶 (baby announcement photos by @theretropenguin at @intheglossary)

that car lighting hits different 😏👏🏼

i spent my “skinny days” hating my body. this is something i’ve shared before, but feel like it’s an important story to continue sharing 🖤 i always felt judged being the “big girl” wearing a bikini- not to mention the judgement i worried about posting a picture in one. i’d ask my friends what photo i looked skinniest in before ever sharing. i wouldn’t let photos be taken on anyone else’s phone/camera that way i had full control. absolutely no candid photos 🙅🏼‍♀️ i lived a life full of hate, and didn’t think there was anything wrong with that. i never felt enough, even in my smaller body. i thought the more i could shrink my body, the flatter i could get my stomach, the smaller i got my thighs... the happier i’d be. i was chasing after a feeling and thought my body size was the thing holding me back from it. BOY WAS I WRONG my body has changed, but so has my mindset. we are our own worst critics and size doesn’t equal happiness. i understand that it’s not about your size at any given point, it’s about that mindset. every version of you is beautiful and worthy 🖤 my body is going to continue to change for the rest of my life. i will inevitably lose weight, gain weight, redistribute my weight... but at the end of the day, i would rather spend my precious time and energy doing SO many other things than hating my body. i am thankful for everything my body does for me and has done for me. even on the tough days (you know we all have them), i try to remember this.