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A divide amongst those that are self sufficient and those that look for others to make them feel better. People that haven’t learnt to be self reliant mostly don’t understand self reliance and how it works. Even as I’m saying the word ‘self reliance’, I feel like I’m giving it a more positive connotation than emotional dependence. I’m saying I wasn’t allowed to cry so I learnt not to.

Believe it or not, I get a lot of joy out of smelling food I can’t eat, especially bad sugary food. It does however create some weird looks with people that have no idea what I’m doing to their food! In this picture I’m sniffing cotton candy coffee, which to my disappointment doesn’t have much scent.

I’m not saying that I don’t have value outside of being attractive. I’m also not saying that I won’t be able to survive without looks. I’m not worried that I won’t be awesome anyway. And don’t I have a right to do that?

I admit I don’t trust women and feminine energy as long as I can remember. Until the next day I got a text from this guy I was in love with saying he wanted to cool things off. Even if Jemima hadn’t told them the full story about basically asking me to date him, I couldn’t understand. So I spent a lot of time around masculine energy.