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I’d like to thank the ABH Stick Foundation for the even skin and VSCO Cam for the dope aesthetic on these photos. In the new year I’m working on capturing moments more, documenting, remembering accurately. I look back at how much I’ve travelled in the past few years and yes, I have Snapchat memories and Instagram memories to look back on but those boomerangs and late night videos do nothing to capture how the experience really made me feel. Document every audition, every breakdown, every quiet morning spent writing in the kitchen pouring French press after French press.

and here’s to taking one step forward into the hope + possibility of tomorrow. These photos came from the urge to do a smoky grunge look (we won’t talk about how glam it turned out) and the fact that I got invited to a spontaneous party that was being held later that night. We don’t have to talk about the chipped white nail polish, the unkempt brows, the wireless headphones still in my ears, and the early 2000’a vibe to how I’m holding my DSLR I’ll talk to you guys later and I’ll be filming a video on this look a little later.

This powder (and the not pictured Cover FX loose finishing powder) have my heart. Shade 40 is the perfect all over finishing powder, something I’d been in search of for a while before stumbling across the Maybelline powder. I’ve been loving it best paired with dewy or natural finish looks rather than matte foundations because this powder is very good at its job Before I came here I’d already adopted the look and to make up for the release of high school me and the motto of ‘more is more’, I’ve adopted sleek looks, loved staples, and classic aesthetics.

I am all of those things now not because I tried to be all of those things but because I did things and grew naturally. In the past month I’ve been fired from my job, cast in an amazing show, fallen in love with someone who constantly pushes me to be my best self but also lets me fail spectacularly all while helping me as lovingly as possible, I’ve learned to love my body as it changes, not for the prettier but for the stronger, I’ve started applying for school finally, and while learning what this version of myself can be I’m excited to see what my next level will be. I can’t wait to be 18 and to do pretty much the same thing I’ve been doing but maybe now just a little more. Until then, enjoy these photos of me in a WeWork bathroom in Target jeans and a Tate t-shirt and just tryna live my best life while not being sure where it’s gonna go one day to the next.