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I mentioned in my 2018 Goals post that this year I’ve set myself a little challenge of taking a photo a day mainly so that I actually remember to pick up the camera and remember some of the moments that just seem to pass us by. I got so absorbed in actually being able to spend every single second with her that I actually forgot to take a lot of pictures and although I still have ton’s of photos of her growing and becoming the Beautiful nearly 3 year old that she is there are moments when I think to myself but I only have about half the amount of pictures with her in because life gets so busy that half the time I just forget to pick up the bloody camera. and I thought it could be quite a good idea each month to pick out 10 of my favourites and do a little post on them, although as I found out today it’s rather tricky to limit it down to just 10,

, many of you have read Delilah’s story so far and if you haven’t then you can catch up on the first one here Going into labour at 24 weeks, the second one here Delilah’s Story And this nurse just turned to Delilah and said oh well don’t be thinking you are going to get your own way here because your not and moved the dummy further away from her. The next thing I found hard was being further away from the hospital because even though we were back in our home town it took us so much longer to get to the hospital each day, but I was so glad that Delilah got to see her brothers and Nanny more as it was that little bit easier for everyone else to get there, and Delilah got to meet her Granny Ann (Ben’s step-mum) for the first time too. But we never even knew that she needed the surgery until the night before it happened it just very suddenly went downhill and the next thing we knew we where being told that if they didn’t do something in the next 24 hours she would be blind.

I loved names (which I know sounds a bit weird) but I found them really interesting and loved choosing names for character’s in any stories I have ever written and then even before I got pregnant for the first time We went in and Ben went to order our coffee’s and here is a fun little fact Ben also ordered a shot of something or other (to get over the shock me thinks haha) and told the guy serving it was because he had just gotten engaged. And I can so clearly remember being sat in my Mum’s place one day having a little leaf through and texting Ben the ones that I quite liked (and mostly getting back a big fat no) when I found Delilah And as for the Olive part that is from my mum which felt perfect seeing as Delilah had Ben’s mum

One of the Doctors that had been a part of the transport team from Reading to Oxford came over after he had been on holiday for about a week and he couldn’t believe that she was finally off of the ventilator and said that if he was being very honest he really didn’t think she would be able to before he went on holiday, I think a lot of the doctors and nurses were as proud of Lilah for doing it as Ben and I were. Like most thing’s this was just another thing that Delilah wanted to do when she wanted to but its scary to think of what could have happened had the situation gone a little differently. Another memory that stands out in my head happened on a day that my mum came over for a visit and because visiting hours are only a few hours long apart from parents and siblings we went into Headington which was just down the road from the hospital for a coffee. she was Blue (never a good sign) and very quickly nurses started working to bring her back, all this time Kim (bless her) smiled and said oh she’s beautiful look at her changing colour (Only Kim haha) and the nurse just looked at me as if to say let’s not freak her out and lets just pretend everything is absolutely fine