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I didn’t do it on purpose, I just didn’t have much to write about and I think that living my life without pressuring myself to write is definitely a good choice. Sometimes life forces you to learn a lesson even though you don’t think you need it or want it. I believe that I’m not the shy, quiet girl I once was in high school, but for some reason when I saw the guy I used to like in high school sitting at the table beside the one my friends I saw the way he behaved and I realized that I have outgrown not only that shy, little girl but him as well.

I like to win, probably too much for my own good. If you have any male cousins or brothers you know they usually are sore losers and they won’t accept defeat, especially if it’s a girl who’s winning! I don’t mean a sore loser, I just wanted to win! Some people might say there must be some underlying issue in my subconscious that makes you think you have to be the best at everything, but I think I mostly want to win because when you try your hardest and your best at something you simply want to be recognized for your hard work.

You know that feeling that you can feel creeping up from inside you, that grows every day a little more until it reaches your mind and it becomes a voice in your head that tries to tell you something and all you want to do is shut it up? Well, I know now that sometimes there’s just a feeling that keeps coming back, over and over, and it’s better not to ignore it because that voice inside your head is probably telling you something that you’d rather not hear, but is definitely true. I had a gut feeling that someone was lying to me, or at least hiding something, and when I found out the truth I can’t say I was shocked. Trust your gut feeling and if you have doubts about something or someone, don’t ignore the situation.

I’ve had that feeling in the past when meeting some of my closest friends, but a few weeks ago I met a girl, and for some reason we instantly clicked. As a half Canadian, half Italian, I’ve always had a hard time finding a place where I really belonged. I felt a jolt of excitement when I met this girl who is so similar to me. I felt and understand what she is going through, trying to find her place in a foreign country and I immediately felt connected to her.