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It’s not safe, it’s not pretty, and it’s not advisable, but let’s save that for another post. They always tell you yoga is a great remedy for mental illness, but what they forget to add is that yoga is only a great remedy if you’re not surrounded by a group of ladies who ask you to move across the room from them because your arms are making them feel uncomfortable. It’s the one place where I can be truly mindful and unaware of my mental health conditions… until the comments and questions come, and I am thrown back down into the world of my illness, a place where I am anything but safe. The more people comment on, or ostensibly react to, my scars, the less likely I am to return to the gym and to continue exercising — one of the things that should, in theory, help me to never create any more scars in my lifetime.

Each one holds demons and emotions I can’t or won’t deal with at the moment. I’m terrified of the feelings these demons evoke. While I’m dealing with all this, I’m stuck in the house because I’m scared of the world. I’m probably not dealing well, but I’m trying.

They knew I had depression and anxiety, but they didn’t fully understand it and therefore they did not understand me. It’s surprising how much people can learn and grow if you give them the benefit of the doubt and let them help. : It’s OK to Be Anxious and Depressed For the longest time It’s OK to take a mental health day

Can you even get right up close and look at yourself — like, really look at yourself — deep down into the eyes staring back at you from the bathroom mirror? I try not to look right at my own eyes because when I look in the mirror, I don’t recognize myself. It’s an awful feeling to look in the mirror and see eyes that don’t feel like my own. So when I look at myself, it was like that wasn’t really my hair; that wasn’t really my body; that just wasn’t really me.