Renee Sendelbach

I felt this need to create after I noticed that while I was creating anything, my mind was at peace. I wasn’t thinking about how bad I felt from the chemo, I wasn’t thinking about all the “what if” stories that were continually running through my head, I wasn’t thinking about what a bad mom I was being to my 13 month old son, what a bad wife I was for all that I had to dump on my husband... From this need in my heart, I made my first “Hope Block. I want people to gain strength and Hope from my stories, and to know that same strength and Hope is there for them too.

My positive outlook isn’t about being able to stay in a good mind space ALL the time... my mind runs out of control ALL the time still, but most of the time I can rain it back in...notice I said MOST of the time and NOT all of the time. I asked him if the low dose estrogen he prescribed could possibly be making my boob hurt because I haven’t had a period in over 8 years so my body isn’t used to actually having estrogen side effects... I floated up to cloud 9 and was able to stay in that mind space through my mamo and sonogram appointment (I have dense breasts, so needing a sonogram is nothing new to me.)

I am SO freaking proud of myself for being on day 42 of doing a daily mala meditation. I have been craving a meditation practice for I don’t know how long. That was until my coach Meg told me she wanted me to try doing a mala meditation with the words “ease and flow. A few things I have noticed about myself in these past 42 days: When I get pissy about something, I am asking myself to understand why I am pissy MUCH quicker than I did before.

The 3 of us went up to Eric’s parents lake house. It was SO MUCH FUN!! Saturday and Sunday, Eric and Ian went skiing