Thea Touchton

Today is my #mom’s #birthday. And because our relationship has never been typical- I’m going to share my #abortion #story. Spoiler alert, I’ve never had an abortion. I am actually one of those people that is alive because my mom chose/ was slightly pressured into keeping me. 22 was a hard age for my mom to have me. She was not financially ready, she was still struggling with addiction (5.7% of women in the US do) and her eating disorder (75% of women in the US do too). She was actually still using in the early months of her pregnancy although the doctor assured her I’d be fine (my slew of health problems diagnosed in my adulthood have caused me to wonder if this doctor was also just hoping for her to avoid an abortion but I was a healthy baby). While my mom had support from her family (one of the lucky ones), I watched her struggle with men’s perceived worth of her as a #young #singlemom mom and the abuse that men gave her and me for keeping the bastard baby. Even though a couple of those men abandoned children of their own. My whole life I’ve grown up feeling like a burden because I was an #unplanned baby. I’ve tried to take my own life because of these thoughts. And in healing my suicidal thoughts I’ve had to have faith that I am meant to be here. My mom has tearfully admitted I saved her life by being born. After all that it’s hard for me to embrace being completely #prochoice or #prolife. I can say this though. This country is plentiful and prosperous enough that it should have more research into #womenshealth. Work places should have day care centers. Fathers should pay child support. People should have access to better sexual education. The government should protecting women and children not allowing laws and companies that harm them. Doctors should listen and believe women when they tell them about their health. While I’m saddened for all the lives that will be effected by #roevswade being overturned, the system hasn’t been treating women right with that law in place and I am hopeful that something better will come to take its place. Women are fighters because they’ve had to be but they are the strongest people I know. This is their country too.

Being overwhelmed is the new normal, I guess?¿?

At the #youthmentalwellnessnow and after listening to some #incredible #speakers on how to better the #mentalhealth of our #youth, can’t help but hope all the parents out there are #encouraging their #daughters, all their children really, to resist the system. Because the way I see it - from that #resistance comes the #persistence to build a better one. #lbgtq #happypride #happypridemonth🌈 #happypridemonth🏳️‍🌈 #happypride🌈

I don’t need to be appealing to everyone, right? 😅 #monsters

It’s #risky to reveal oneself but I am compelled to do it… through #adele. After being surrounded by #successful fabulous, younger or just barely older than me, incredible people for a couple days- my comparison voice is fire alarm loud. Luckily I also have a logical voice as well that’s like, “hey lil nby that’s not fair- you had a wickedly weird and unfair childhood, and it’s okay that your path was a little longer than some. You haven’t had the privilege people assume you’ve had.” But right now I feel so close to the last building block of the hierarchy of needs- a stable #artistic income and yet, not a lot of control if I’ll “be enough” for it. Which brings me back to @adele, and the fitting metaphor of my boyfriend making me a drink at the beginning of the song 😂. It wasn’t until this day I realized wait, maybe #chasingpavements is not about the #artisticjourney but is actually about #love. But the way I’m interpreting is this #song is about having so much love for something but #grinding so hard for it that you’re just hitting cement pavement after pavement. I’m personally not ready to give up on my dreams (there are not Hispanic and queer films and shows and these are just THE facts) but like a personal request to the universe- instead of hitting pavement can I like hit a bathtub of cash or Grecian blue water or like Parisian lavender fields? Can you work that out because LA pavement is really smoggy and tarry :/ JUST A REQUEST thanks

The world gave me so much #pain but here I am making #gold of it. Been working on turning some of my #poems into #songs and just went for it on #TikTok today. This poem was about my ex husband (haha yeah for the new people here- I got #married super young 1) for #love and 2) to be able to afford to go to college - both reasons back fired LOL). Basically to cope with my #mentalhealth I just started free #writing my #feelings. This poem was about how hard it was to #moveon. Felt compelled to release this messy lil version after listening to my grandma and her boyfriend open up about their divorces and mental health journey to me. If you’re in a similar space, I hope you are finding community and know you’re not alone in healing from #divorce or a #breakup. ♥️

coping with stress by using this picture as a eulogy for a bunch of little #dreams (Sueñitos, as we like to call them) that passed away today. So bad news time, while I’m still presenting to some amazing partners in Washington, DC, I got the news I’m not speaking at the White House. (I know I’ve already cry sobbed in the shower about it too.) In fairness, it would have probably been too strange for our country as it stands for a dead convicted felon’s daughter to speak at the White House anyway. So while I have a seat at the table, I’m voiceless there. 🥲 But the good news is there are ten other powerful voices and I’m super excited to hear what they have to say! For all of the amazing people that submitted stuff to be a featured in storytelling on mental health- that too has been cut. There is a chance you could all potentially resubmit down the line, fingers crossed. I tried, my people, I really did. And I’m still trying for you. So RIP to the ease of selling poetry books on healing from abuse. RIP to gaining a little more traction and legitimacy for #suenitomedia my production company which aims to shatter every glass ceiling for #queer and latinè people. RIP to all the bullies in my life finally being proven wrong. RIP to the glittery sunlight feeling that would have been a much needed relief to all the #grief this year has had me deal with. From where these little dreams are #buried, may more opportunities grow. Either way, I’ve shown up in this program with an open heart, a willingness to grow, and a hunger to learn from others. I did the best I could and while that still didn’t qualify all the way- that’s how it goes sometimes. My mental health is not the Gucciest now (as the kids clearly say lol) so I’d love some acting offers, industry tips and meetings, kind words of encouragement and optimism right now. I also found the news 3,000 and some miles from my physical support systems (of which I have just leaned horizontal on this past sucky week) so my whole body feels sad but I’m gonna have to be off brand for 3 days and grin and bear it. So ummm, I hope you all have been having a better week haha. You must be right? Hopefully😜

And it’s official! @suenitomedia ‘s #animated #lesbian #musical Jest is being #storyboard ed as of today. The longest it will take is a year but I’m hoping to attract more #money into the #project as we continue to #pitch to speed it up. So if ya’ll know anybody 👀 let a #nonbinary know. Because seriously this musical is going to change lives and provide so much hope for the #queer community. There’s so much hate in the world and this #film is a #joy. So many great musicals have saved my life and made getting through the day easier. Either way a very exciting #happy day because ahhh!! I’m #producing not only my first #feature but also my first animated project! #daretobebolder

Wait, how come my real #life right now is matching #energy with the energy in my #dramedy #reel? 👀 Can the universe throw me a solid and fund all our #movie ideas with relative ease as well as helping me book a couple network credits? I’m not asking for too much, am I? 🤣🙏🏻 Anyway let me know what y’all think. & please book me on any all dramedies and #comedies. I ain’t too proud to beg 😅

Well, at least he thinks I’m #special #🤣 #🥰 #♥️ #☺️

My most current cut and #style. What do y’all think of the #new #headshots? What kind of #characters could you see me #playing?

I feel like I never quite catch my fans up to speed on what’s happening in my life- will this rendition of @boburnham #thatfunnyfeeling suffice? Let a non-binary know.

Forever envisioning a day when doctors will prescribe 15 to 20 minutes a day of #laughing like they prescribe 30 minutes of daily #exercise. (P.S. speaking of laughing, I really miss #musical #theatre #improv, someone start a #troupe with me, please!)

#charming

going through some character development 🤔 which character I’m developing into I cannot say. Let me know your guesses!